About Me

At the present time, I'm not working. I'd love to have a full time job, but unfortunately my health just won't allow it. There are days it takes all I have to get through the day. I have worked part time, as a free lance audio visual assistant for the last four years. Last spring when I worked, I noticed it was causing pain in areas I hadn't had pain before, more frequent tremors and I have developed some kind of internal tremors. Makes me feel like my central nervous system is out of wack. I feel like I am standing on a floor next to a washer in a spin cycle. Vibrating internally, makes it very hard to concentrate. It affects my mood and my thinking. There are a couple of reasons I have not addressed it with my Doc yet. One: I really don't want to know what's wrong. I just can't deal with anything else going wrong with me right now. Two: my neurologist got married and moved, so now I need to start over again with a new doctor.
I will tell you all about the day my life changed in April of 2008 in a future post(s). I'd give anything to have it not have happened, but it did and now I am trying to make the best of it. 

I've had many people tell me I'm the strongest person they know. I guess that's because, I only cry and fall apart when I'm alone. I will then, pick myself up by the seat of my pants and make the best of the situation. I feel bad when someone I know is down, so I never want those I know to feel bad, just because I'm in a rough spot. I try to make light of difficult situations and lead others to believe I'm doing fine. 
I hate asking for help. My mother use to say, "it never hurts to ask" and she would also say, "don't ask for help, unless you truly need it". I hate to admit when I need help, I really do. I will usually not ask if it is solely to do with me, but if my kids are affected or someone else I care about, I will try to render a solution on my own first before admitting help is needed. I will seek help if it comes to that.

They say, "necessity is the mother of invention" a notion to address a need. That's how I figured out how well conditioner works as a shaving cream. I could not afford actual shave cream for my legs and used soap for a while. My legs would itch like crazy, stubble would be quick to return and my razor would last half as long as they use to. I got to thinking about it and tried conditioner one time. That was years ago and I still use it today, even if I could afford shaving cream, I'd still use my conditioner. My legs don't itch the next day, my razors last longer and my stubble seems to be less and not so rough. I have had to use creativity for many things and can't wait to share things with you and hope to learn a few things along the way as well.

After my divorce, do to circumstances beyond my control (will explain another time), I ended up moving about 200 miles away from my home town and where I had lived most of my life. It's rough starting over at this age. Not easy to meet new people. Most have good friends already and don't see a need for more. Some are very judgmental and set in their ways. Not sure if it's the whole age thing or if it's just life experiences with people in general that make people not be as open to having new people come in to their lives. Perhaps virtual friendship is the way to go. Worth a try anyway. Be my virtual friend and help a fellow human being get through some rough times. 

If I were to tell you about me and what brought me to a place of blogging, I'd end up writing a novel and be done with it, however, this blog isn't all about me. I want it to be a community of people helping one another out. Giving advise, tips, comfort, encouragement and strength in numbers. They say: "it takes a village to raise a child". Perhaps it take a community to sustain them.
I'd like to believe people are still considered to be social mammals. One thing nice about yesteryear, people always pulled together to help one another out. Now days, it seems people are more set on keeping people down. As if we are all part of a game and winning is all that matters. What ever happened to: "It's not about winning, it's about how you play the game". 
I have found that people who can relate to struggle and strokes of bad luck or unforeseen circumstances, tend to be much more understanding and compassionate. I'm hoping for people that do not pass judgment, who are kind and compassionate, and can accept people for who they are and not be judged by their circumstances, to be a big part of this community. A small community that has a bond, is much better than a large community that is divided.

Life really sucks some times, but can suck a lot less if you don't feel as if you are all alone.

I'm not the best writer and often make mistakes, so please don't be too critical. I'm working on improving my punctuation and learning how to become a better writer as I go. I was never all that great in my high school English classes. I have been told by several though, that they like the way I talk, when reading what I have written. I'm hoping that will suffice, as I enter content to these pages and posts.
I do enjoy writing my thoughts and sharing information with others. I'm not trying to win, just trying to provide useful information to those who seek it.